"to thine own self, be true" - shakesphere
"the world laughs through flowers." - ?
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
clara is usually late.
and that's why she's my therapist.
she always cancels on the right days.
we're going to go to a coffee shop to talk. how awesome is that?
well i've been waiting here and decided it was a good idea to share this. This is from my journal:
I started becoming good friends with the "smart kids" when I was in my junior year of high school. There were a lot of perks to having a friendship with these kids. Teachers were more prone to like you, discussions about authors and books spontaneously arose, and more of often than not, they were good friends.
But one thing I could never wrap my head around was how pretentious they were all becoming. I think, as much as you don't want to become pretentious, it can sneak up on you. And it did with these people.
They were repulsed at the idea of being friends with someone who couldn't spell or had trouble reading. They saw other kids as a waste of their time and a waste of space. And if that doesn't make you pretentious, I don't know what does.
Just because you can recite shakesphere or know how to solve polynomials doesn't mean you are guaranteed to be a better person.
My sister just asked me how to spell "sore" a few minutes ago. My sister used to go to Schurz. My sister could have been one of these people.
And god knows as well as I do, that she isn't stupid. When she was younger, she read all the Harry Potter series. As soon as a book came out, she would be there to buy it. I remember when she finally read the last book, she came out of her room, teary eyed and in between sobs, and announced to my brother and I that "dumbledoore died".
My sister had hopes of being a history teacher.
But it's hard when you grow up with a step dad, a mother that doesn't know how to love, and a boyfriend that convinces you that he does.
Not everyone is strong enough to rise above, and not everyone is asked to.
I have a friend (in this smart kid circle) who wants to change the world.
She wants to spread education to third world countries and she's doing it because of `her mom. She says it kills her every time her mom asks her to write something for her because her mom can't do it herself. It just kills me because she is so concerned with third world countries that she doesn't realize the same is happening within her school's classrooms. I wish instead of bashing on these kids, she could have helped them.
My friend allyson said "be kind..for everyone is suffering."
I couldn't agree more. I couldn't agree more.
she always cancels on the right days.
we're going to go to a coffee shop to talk. how awesome is that?
well i've been waiting here and decided it was a good idea to share this. This is from my journal:
I started becoming good friends with the "smart kids" when I was in my junior year of high school. There were a lot of perks to having a friendship with these kids. Teachers were more prone to like you, discussions about authors and books spontaneously arose, and more of often than not, they were good friends.
But one thing I could never wrap my head around was how pretentious they were all becoming. I think, as much as you don't want to become pretentious, it can sneak up on you. And it did with these people.
They were repulsed at the idea of being friends with someone who couldn't spell or had trouble reading. They saw other kids as a waste of their time and a waste of space. And if that doesn't make you pretentious, I don't know what does.
Just because you can recite shakesphere or know how to solve polynomials doesn't mean you are guaranteed to be a better person.
My sister just asked me how to spell "sore" a few minutes ago. My sister used to go to Schurz. My sister could have been one of these people.
And god knows as well as I do, that she isn't stupid. When she was younger, she read all the Harry Potter series. As soon as a book came out, she would be there to buy it. I remember when she finally read the last book, she came out of her room, teary eyed and in between sobs, and announced to my brother and I that "dumbledoore died".
My sister had hopes of being a history teacher.
But it's hard when you grow up with a step dad, a mother that doesn't know how to love, and a boyfriend that convinces you that he does.
Not everyone is strong enough to rise above, and not everyone is asked to.
I have a friend (in this smart kid circle) who wants to change the world.
She wants to spread education to third world countries and she's doing it because of `her mom. She says it kills her every time her mom asks her to write something for her because her mom can't do it herself. It just kills me because she is so concerned with third world countries that she doesn't realize the same is happening within her school's classrooms. I wish instead of bashing on these kids, she could have helped them.
My friend allyson said "be kind..for everyone is suffering."
I couldn't agree more. I couldn't agree more.
i only stick with you.
because there are no others.
it seemed pretty terrible at first. for someone to say that.
but when you think about it.
it's a hell of a compliment.
i love it. it's one of my favorite lines by radiohead.
i never keep any of my jewelery.
i'm gonna give "the kiss" to Clara.
and the locket to B because I remember her saying "i'm going to get a locket one day from someone". It was really cute, and kind of sad. But not sad anymore because I'm here to give it to her :D
i hope they like it.
"it's not what you have.
it's what you give."
yesterday was a good day.
aside from many other awesome things happening, i finally met the two dogs that live about five houses down. they belong to a guy named "ed" and he sits on his front porch a lot and plays good music on his guitar when the weather is nice. Bailey hid behind Ed when he met me. Ed said that it will take him some time to get used to me. It's okay. There is no rush. The other one, whose named I forgot unfortunately, is one big love bear. He is soooo cute. He started growling at me when I stopped petting him and the growling stopped when I pet him again. Lol. Ed said "if you ever see him outside, don't forget to pet him. he'll get mad at cha if you don't."
lol Ed seems like a nice guy. And he accepted my apple pie when I first met him. That's always a good thing.
lol. and i made pizza for my little brothers. and i talked to my mom nice. and i fell asleep early. and the episode of billy and mandy i watched was a funny one. i think i might be mandy for halloween. SLUTTY MANDY. lol just kidding.
and of course you know. of course.
because there are no others.
it seemed pretty terrible at first. for someone to say that.
but when you think about it.
it's a hell of a compliment.
i love it. it's one of my favorite lines by radiohead.
i'm gonna give "the kiss" to Clara.
and the locket to B because I remember her saying "i'm going to get a locket one day from someone". It was really cute, and kind of sad. But not sad anymore because I'm here to give it to her :D
i hope they like it.
"it's not what you have.
it's what you give."
yesterday was a good day.
aside from many other awesome things happening, i finally met the two dogs that live about five houses down. they belong to a guy named "ed" and he sits on his front porch a lot and plays good music on his guitar when the weather is nice. Bailey hid behind Ed when he met me. Ed said that it will take him some time to get used to me. It's okay. There is no rush. The other one, whose named I forgot unfortunately, is one big love bear. He is soooo cute. He started growling at me when I stopped petting him and the growling stopped when I pet him again. Lol. Ed said "if you ever see him outside, don't forget to pet him. he'll get mad at cha if you don't."
lol Ed seems like a nice guy. And he accepted my apple pie when I first met him. That's always a good thing.
lol. and i made pizza for my little brothers. and i talked to my mom nice. and i fell asleep early. and the episode of billy and mandy i watched was a funny one. i think i might be mandy for halloween. SLUTTY MANDY. lol just kidding.
and of course you know. of course.
i'm going to my wear my smith's dress today
it's happening.
i took down my morrissey shirt from my room. it's too precious not to wear.
ah, i love you i love you i love you.
whatever you are.
i asked aumi if she liked britney spears and she said "yes".
it's just like her to say yes. it's funny how big of a discussion this turned into when i told her i hated her. she brought it up again two hours later and said "i feel like i have to really explain why i like her." lololol and she did. and her reasons were good. it's just like aumi to like someone.
i told her i understand what she means because that's how i feel about miley cyrus. lolol
"but you know who my favorite band is ely."
lol i do.
that's awesome.
it's sublime. in case anyone was wondering.
and we can findddddd new wayyyyyys of livingggggg
the real question is what moves you?
what speaks to your soul?
it might sound stupid, but it's not.
it's more complicated than that and one day i'll explain it better.
this is one of kathleen hanna's (lead singer of bikini kill) favorites:
it's a good song. i like it.
i just feel like sharing this ^^
paul smiles while he sings.
he used that same bass @ his concert in wrigley field.
OH MAN I LOVE THAT FACE
THEY'RE SO CUTE
i have another favorite band.
*person
but i'll never tellll. he knows it though. he has to.
from the in rainbows album:
i took down my morrissey shirt from my room. it's too precious not to wear.
ah, i love you i love you i love you.
whatever you are.
i asked aumi if she liked britney spears and she said "yes".
it's just like her to say yes. it's funny how big of a discussion this turned into when i told her i hated her. she brought it up again two hours later and said "i feel like i have to really explain why i like her." lololol and she did. and her reasons were good. it's just like aumi to like someone.
i told her i understand what she means because that's how i feel about miley cyrus. lolol
"but you know who my favorite band is ely."
lol i do.
that's awesome.
it's sublime. in case anyone was wondering.
and we can findddddd new wayyyyyys of livingggggg
the real question is what moves you?
what speaks to your soul?
it might sound stupid, but it's not.
it's more complicated than that and one day i'll explain it better.
this is one of kathleen hanna's (lead singer of bikini kill) favorites:
paul smiles while he sings.
he used that same bass @ his concert in wrigley field.
OH MAN I LOVE THAT FACE
THEY'RE SO CUTE
i have another favorite band.
*person
but i'll never tellll. he knows it though. he has to.
from the in rainbows album:
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hahaha that is so awesome
and kind of cool. lol
I FUCKING LOVE AVRIL LAVIGNE.
i love the mal-nourished heroin chic look. i dont' know why. it just appeals to me. call me crazy, because i am.
"who knows. what could happen? do what you do just keep on laughing. one things true: there is always a brand new day." why can you write like this anymore avril? it's okay. i'm happy with what i have. it's so cheesy, but i love it!!
i love the mal-nourished heroin chic look. i dont' know why. it just appeals to me. call me crazy, because i am.
"who knows. what could happen? do what you do just keep on laughing. one things true: there is always a brand new day." why can you write like this anymore avril? it's okay. i'm happy with what i have. it's so cheesy, but i love it!!
how she went from feeling "unwanted" (song) to telling a guy she doesn't like their girlfriend and she thinks he needs a new one and she could be that girlfriend..i don't care to know.
i am subscribed to this guy. yes. :
I'M GOING TO BE A ZOMBIE THIS SUNDAY.
FINALLY.
Monday, April 22, 2013
i'm sick of living these lonely nights..training myself not to care.
it took time but i foundddddd youuu. it took time but i found youuu.
"in the days when you were hopeless and poor..i just liked you more."
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