therapy.

i get misinterpreted so much.
fuck. i should probably stop going.
it's a waste of time.
clara left and now i have a new therapist
and it just all seems like the same again

i just want comfort guys.
i don't really seem to get it anywhere.

i feel like a fucking idiot. lol.
i should just be okay with that too
that i'll be oen for the rest of my life
but so will everyone else
sort of

adam totally tripped me out yesterday lol..
i really needed that though..
i really needed to step back and question what the fuck it was all about
lol...
god what a fucking joke.

the only thing we really have is love i think.
and even at that...
who knows?
i sure as hell fucking don't.

what am i supposed to do
what am i supposed to do
what am i supposed to do

i'm really fucking conflicted.

i just feel like never saying a word again and just running off the be a mime somewhere
but what the fuck ely
i just feel like hanging out with tim and having him play guitar and singing along
but what the fuck ely
i just feel like hanging out with panda
that sounds good
but she's working two fucking jobs
i just feel like hanging out with Allyson
but i don't wnt to get in the way of her decisions
i know how hard she's trying too
i just feel like hanging out with yerika
but that's not going to happen

i don't know if it sounds like i need saving or rescuing or something.
i don't.
i just want to complain..
let me be negative lol..

i keep thinking about what Morrissey said. how we're all solitary creatures.
i guess it's true.
ro some extent

whatever i'm just going to not think