lately, i've been walking around with this dark place looming in the back of my heart. i don't know why it's there, i just know it's there. it's still possible to laugh and feel good, but it's made it impossible to feel completely good. i think it's because i've been feeling overwhelming guilty for anything that i've been doing.
it's been hard to make decisions that don't hurt someone. whether that someone is me or that someone is a loved one. it sucks because i think i take on the sufferings of loved ones when i can't do what i wish i could.
i'm trying though. i know that's not enough, but it's a start and i feel like i'm getting better and i'm not giving up....

is it possible to make everyone around you happy?
how much do my actions effect them anyway?